nnnnnggggggNGNGGG… what is this pain won’t go away and let me sleep. Uncap the orange bottle and swallow two percocets… gulp – – –

NNNGGGGG huhhhhuhhh

 up from homebed blankets and pillows, hunchwalk over to the bathroom, sit down, push nnngggggGGG nothinnggggGGGgg… still…. Nnggg..  no go…

tired, pull a towel hanging from the door on to the cold tiles and lie down, released from the hospital because I had bowel movement, not moving now

aaaanNNNGGGG

Need a grrrggll, try to push it through manually, fingers prodding the pain spot…

NNNNNGGGGGGGGG

hurts worse…

AAAAAAANNNNNNNGGGGGGGG

no relief

NNGGGGGGGGGGGGG

pure pain undiluted

“Are you okay in there?” Mom voice.

“MMm, I don’t think so…”

“Should I call the doctor?”

“Yes.”
“Okay what should I tell him?”

AAAAAANNNNGGGGGG

“Acute pain, not moving…”

“How long?”

“Past few hours.”

“Okay, and you’ve been taking your pain meds?”

“Yes.”

– – –AAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNGGGGGGGGNGNGGGGGGGGGG

NNNGGGGG– – –

“He says to bring you into the ER, it’s still not going away right?”

“No.”

“Okay, I’m going to get ready, let’s get you into the car.”
– – –AAGGGNNNGGGGgggggNNggNGgngggg…- – –

codeine in bloodstream, dulling enough to help hunchwalk back to my room put on loose clothes and hit bowl before I go? No, might need my lungs.

Out into the night, mom’s car around the corner, get into the passenger’s seat.

“I’ll try to not hit any bumps.”

To the bridge…

aaaNnnGGgggGGggnnNGGgggg…

ggggGGGNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGG…

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